|Posted on June 7, 2015 at 4:15 AM|
I always imagined by my high school reunion that I would have a career that I loved, being married to the man of my dreams and have a couple kids. I always wanted to be able to go to my reunion and be able to tell people that things I’ve done in the past 10 years, but the last few years haven’t been going that way I had pictured.
In high school, I had a bunch of things I wanted to accomplish by the time my 10 year reunion had arrived. I wanted to show up and be able to brag about the dreams and goals I conquered and how hard I worked to get to where I was, but none of the things I wanted to achieve in the last 10 years have come true.
I’ve always been my own person, always went along with the beat of a different drum, but one thing I wanted was to show the people I went to high school with that I had made something of myself. I wanted to show them that I was more than that quiet kid in class. Normally, I don’t go around bragging about what I’ve done, but the kids in my grad class never gave me the time of day and I always wanted to prove to them that I can be anything I want to be and I have the success to prove it.
Everyone seems to have the dreams that I wish I had. Being married, travelling, having kids, etc. and what do I have to show in the past 10 years. I’ve talked about doing so much, but I haven’t gotten nowhere near where I want to be. I’m not up to where everyone else is in their life.
I’m just starting to think that maybe my life isn’t meant to be perfect. Maybe I’m not supposed to live out my dreams. Maybe I’m supposed to stay in one place and do one thing day in and day out. What have I done on the last 10 years that I could possibly say to a group of people that never gave a rats ass about me?