|Posted on June 27, 2015 at 3:50 AM|
Everyone has days where they feel sad or down. They can’t explain it, but sometimes those days happen. Over the past few days, I’ve been feeling sad. I don’t know why, but it seems like something is bothering me and I don’t know what or why. I’ve been nervous, stressed and anxious. Maybe those emotions are what’s got me down.
I’ve been going out and trying to keep myself busy. When I’m out, I want to go home, but when I’m at home, I want to go out. Even when I'm out, I feel sad. It’s a weird situation. I would feel fine then something sets it off and I become sad. I can’t focus. My thoughts are all over the place. I can't explain it. I can be on the computer going on the websites I go on everyday and something sets me off. No matter how small the thing I do, something clicks and that part of my brain switches something on and I get sad. I could be texting someone and my mood would go from laughing to what they said to wanting to crawl into a ball under the covers and go to sleep then a few minutes later I would be fine until something else triggers a mood. I don't know if that would be considered a mood swing or something that needs to be monitered and controled.
I’m not in a severe mood where everything is crashing down on me, but the mood puts a downer on my day. I don’t think it’s anything to worry about and I’m sure it’s something that would pass over time, but I do wonder. I don't know if I'm just lonely and want to be able to have someone in my life that always be there for me when I get into a funk or is it something that we go thru at some point in our lives because we're getting older. Our bodies are getting older, our hormones change or maybe its the start of something that can't be explained. Maybe its my body telling me that I need a change. Do I need to get away for a while to clear my head? Do I need to need to be around people constantly so I know I have someone always there to help me thru whetever mood I'm in? The more I think about it, the more I wonder what really is wrong. Am I taking it to seriously? Am I thinking about it to much? Do I just need to be more sociable and develop a more busy life? Do you think I'm alone with my thoughts to much and I jump to conclusions way to quickly? What should I do? Will being around people help me not think about stuff that bothers me?
I’m thinking it’s because I don’t have a daily routine. I’m not constantly busy every day. I have a lot of free time so that gives me a lot of time to think. I like having a routine, something I can do every day. I did have a routine, but that changed. I went out a few times a week, running errands and socializing. Now that this routine has changed, I realize that my day isn’t what it once was and I think that’s what is bringing me down. I don’t socialize has much as I used to, I don’t go out as much as I used to.
The people I talk to on a regular basis are not in the same community as I am. I can’t go and hang out with them during the week. One friend I talk to everyday is 5 hours away, another friend is going to Victoria for school and I have friends who live in California and New York.
It’s hard, but I think if maybe I start developing a daily routine and get out and keep busy then maybe the blues will disappear. I have too much time on my hands and the more time I have alone the more time I have to think about stuff. I’ve been in funks before and usually they go away in a day or two. Hopefully once I get out more and meet new people, I’ll be able to get over whatever this thing I’m in.
Should I be worried? Should I be concerned? Does everybody else feel sad about what's going on in their lives? How do you overcome it?